-Trying to eat enough calories to maintain my weight without losing more by accidental deficit (accidentally ate barely 1000 calories 2 days ago and already went back to 106.8 from 108.6) WITHOUT triggering heartburn, stomach upset, or bloating
-Getting random pains in parts of my body that are coincidentally close to areas where having pain is generally seen as potentially dangerous. But I've had pains in this spot before because my menstrual cycle be like that
-being forced to eat food that triggers acid reflux and the subsequent tight feeling in my throat that makes me paranoid about being sick. Even though my stomach is simultaneously screaming for food.
-The doctor that sees my parents can't accomodate me until APRIL. I don't want to wait that long, I want to know what's wrong with me without a potential ER visit. AGAIN.
-my health problems triggering chronic anxiety. Which makes my body go into chronic stress response. Which makes my symptoms WORSE.
I hate this so much! It hasn't gotten to the point I need to go to the hospital but trying to figure out what's happening to me by googling my symptoms easily pushes me into a panic attack and isnt helping me whatsoever (thanks for telling me I have cancer, appenditicis, and sciatica, WebMD. You're a real pal. Not) I wish my body would just go back to being normal again so I could stop living in fear of my own physiology.