Obsession/Super Attentive To?

I am totally obsessed with collecting Pokemon related items such as the games and the cards. Even if I find no use for it, I still want to get it and collect it. I LOVE Pokemon and I just wanna have everything I can dealing with Pokemon. A personal thing I always do is write down my memos on my mini white board or some sticky notes. I forget things EASILY unless it's REALLY important.
 
I've been obsessively checking my mouth and throat for things like food getting stuck in places they shouldn't be and flossing obsessively now. Ever since I found out I have tonsil pockets in my mouth. ._.
 
Speaking of mouth, ever since the tooth on the right side of my mouth healed, I've been sticking my tongue to rub the "wound". Don't know why. It doesn't feel good nor does it hurt, but for some reason, I continue to rubbed it atleast once xD
 
I've recently had an obsession to make everything perfect and spot clean. I don't even want to see a speck of dust in the house.
 
The last week or so I've been attentive to my teeth to a somewhat worrying degree. Maybe it's because I get scared about my impending need to arrange an appointment with an oral surgeon regarding my wisdom teeth, but I've also been obsessively checking my teeth for enamel loss. Idk why I'm suddenly obsessed with my teeth... it's more debilitating than a good thing because something as insignificant as whether or not my bite has changed will bother me several times during the day. It's kind of scary. Lol
 
Arranging my video games ,books,dvds by brand,as well movies ,and blankets,and pillows need to be angled a certain way((extremely ocd so yea o.o)) I rearrange things and get rid of things to goodwill a lot that I don't need.
 
I've been really obsessed with tidying up my blog sites by retagging things and deleting stuff off them.... '-'
 
Lately I've been kinda obsessed about trying to figure out mathematical equations involving Z-scores and several step problems. I just love it because it takes my mind off things and it gives me something to do.
 
Lately I've been obsessed with getting rid of clutter. Like old emails, that one subscription letter I don't open or read but don't hit the unsub button because I might need it "someday" but that day never comes,

I deleted an entire folder's worth of documents because every time I looked at them I can only think about how miserable and stressed out I was at those times. I don't really know why I kept them for so many years. I did not open them on purpose, and it wasn't like I could truly forget about that time of my life in total. But one day I was very upset and came to realize I do not want to continue ruminating on things that bring me negative feelings. I was already taught a lesson by these feelings when they first appeared to me. They have nothing new to show me. And it would be better for my outlook on life if even the times I found to be terrible had some things to feel happy about. It's not escapism so much as it forces me to confront that part of my past and why I stubbornly chose to keep reminders that only upset me yet turn my eyes away from them. And then I feel good about permanently deleting and trashing those things knowing they will never be within reach again. I felt much lighter closing such old chapters in the road of my life. There's still clutter to get through but I do it when a piece of free time appears to me.
 
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