PROMPT 2: Create a character who is doubting (their beliefs, etc.). Write their interior monologue.
During nightfall on a distant planet, there was a warrior shaped by battles wandering around the barren lands. He was lost in thought, for his mind was focused on what it means to have self-worth. “What is worth…?” He asked himself that question as if it was a foreign concept. “She told me that I no longer must listen to anyone and craved my own path. The path what I want.”
The warrior, Spina, from the day he was born never decided anything for himself. Throughout his entire life until he met his mentor, Kai, all decisions were made for him. He came from a race of beings that dedicated their entire lives to battle. But their most important attribute was the sense of self-worth. They pride themselves on their power, ability, and intelligence. Spina was an odd case; he was born weak and couldn’t do the basics needed for survival. His mother abandoned him for feeling weak, his father did his best to raise him to become a proper warrior. However, their society explicitly shows that any weaklings ought to be banished from their world. For Spina, despite his weak status, it was revealed that he held a hidden potential that proven useful for his people. Rather banished, they force him to become their lackey and cannon fodder.
Having no experience in battle, Spina was raised in a hellish environment where he faced many near-death experiences. The many scars on his body are proof of such. From there, he had no say in the matter. His opinions were worthless in the eyes of his people. His only purpose of existence is to serve under the boot of his people. Nothing more, nothing less.
After the destruction of his planet, Spina was lost of his purpose. He was happy, of course, but he lacks the motivation to go on. It wasn’t until he ran into Kai who took interest in him. She offers to train him in the arts of battle. Furthermore, she offers friendship—not comrade, actual genuine companionship.
“So far it been years since Kai trained me. She constantly asked for my thoughts. My wants. I still don’t know how to respond. It is all new territory for me. Sometimes I wonder if she’s simply doing this for her own benefit. Her own ego…” Spina starts to smile slightly. “I shouldn’t even be thinking like that.” Spina struggled that anyone would even be remotely nice to him. “I always feel ashamed before, but this shame… is doubting her. She works so hard on trying to lift me up.” He laughed to himself and then decided. “I’ll find a nice gift for her. Show my appreciation.”
After some time, Spina held a pretty rock as a gift for Kai. However, he stumbled and overhears the conversation between Kai and her friends. Hiding behind the rock because he felt a little embarrassed and decided to wait until they were finished.
“Are you still hanging around that man? How long will you pull him along?” One asked. “Don’t tell me that you like him?”
“Never! It is just until he masters his training. Then everyone would be impressed that I managed to train a lost puppy. And bam, scores of new students, you know?”
Spina stood in silence after hearing that. His negative thoughts flooded his mind with bad memories. He was always used as a tool before because that’s all he ever knew, but this time, he felt a sense of betrayal. Dropping the rock, he held onto his chest. The stress and anxiety built quickly. “Of course…! That’s her goal…! I’m just a damn dog, haha.” Spina let out a hurtful chuckle. “I was a fool to think otherwise. I shouldn’t see this coming!” Spina rubbed his head, messing up his wild hair. “Damnit. Damnit!” He curses as anger starts to boil over. For the first time, his doubt shifted from sadness to pure, unfiltered rage. “Damnit!”
